- •The Intersection of Law and Desire
- •I let her sit in silence for a few moments before repeating, “What do they have on you?”
- •I hesitated for a second, embarrassed at what came to mind. “Oh, hell. Jerking off,” I finally admitted.
- •I felt a touch of slickness between my legs. “I’m wet,” I acknowledged.
- •I brushed some of the water out of my hair, hoping it would spot her leather interior and muttered, “Whoever said, ‘Better late than never’?”
- •I would be seeing Cordelia tomorrow, I suddenly realized. And myself in the mirror later tonight. I gently removed Karen’s arms from around my neck.
- •I picked up her bike rack and my duffel bag with my oh so beloved running shoes, while Cordelia managed her bike and gear. After locking up, we headed down to put the bike on her car.
- •I turned sharply around to scan the road. “Nope. Not a Rolls in sight. The snootiest car visible is a Cadillac. And it’s not even this year’s model. I don’t think they’re watching you right now.”
- •I watched them as they pedaled away, Torbin riding abreast with Cordelia. She was nodding her head to something he was saying. Then a line of trees hid them from my view.
- •I stopped. Clearly we needed to have more than a one-sided conversation. Joanne looped back to me.
- •I shrugged noncommittally.
- •I nodded as I waited by the passenger door for her to open it.
- •I grinned at his use of tv cop show cliché, then said, “I’ll do what I can. I’ll call you as soon as I’ve got something to report.”
- •I didn’t recognize the desk sergeant. I introduced myself, then bantered a bit about the Saints’ chances for the playoffs this year.
- •I opened it and started reading, although I knew it would back him up. Bill did paperwork until I decided I had read all of the autopsy report that I cared to. I handed the file back to him.
- •I didn’t need to look around to know that Joey had arrived.
- •I let my disapproval hang in the silence for a long moment. “Eight months? And you’re just now wondering about it?”
- •I decided that sniping at each other wasn’t going to be helpful. “What do you do to calm her fears?”
- •I installed the night-light next to Cissy’s bed, then stayed up reading until a little after three, but no one stirred. Maybe the night-light would keep away Cissy’s fears.
- •I gave her a quick rundown while driving out of the airport maze. Then I asked the question I had been wanting to ask. “What do you know about child psychology?”
- •I shrugged, met her gaze for a moment, then looked away. “What do we do?” I demanded.
- •I stood gazing out the window to avoid looking at her while she packed up.
- •I nodded yes.
- •I thought for a moment. Barbara Selby couldn’t afford anything like it. Then I remembered the money Karen was paying me.
- •I decided to do some work on my one paying case and dialed Torbin’s number.
- •I didn’t reply, instead I crossed my arms and looked away from him.
- •I knelt beside Cissy. “I think I like the blue one the best. Which one do you like?”
- •I nodded, then said, “I’m glad you noticed.”
- •I nodded, then added, “I’m not asking for your money back.”
- •I started to ask her about Lindsey, but realized that I was picking at scabs, scratching and irritating them.
- •I sat next to her, taking her hand between both of mine. “Now tell me about your day.”
- •I shuddered beneath Cordelia’s embrace, warmth a fragile and fleeting thing.
- •I didn’t answer. I slowly leaned back into her embrace. Warm and alive and not in immediate pain seemed to be all that I could offer her.
- •I watched Cordelia as she spoke. She believed what she said, but if I gave in to her wishes, then the power became hers and I would have to trust that she would not use it.
- •I turned and led the way to the kitchen.
- •I quickly hurried down the stairs and out of the courtyard, feeling ragged and torn, unwilling to have her voice leave another mark on me.
- •I looked again at the matchbook. “Heart of Desire” was scripted in gold on a black background. Some of the gold lettering had begun to chip.
- •I said, “What are you working on? We might—”
- •I reluctantly gave him the number to Cordelia’s clinic.
- •I sat for a moment before finally replying, “I need to talk to a lawyer first.”
- •I put the black binder back on o’Connor’s desk, a faint unsettled queasiness rolling in my stomach.
- •I thought for a moment. Legally it would probably be Aunt Greta, but she was the last person I’d want involved. “I guess my cousin, Torbin Robedeaux.”
- •I watched Joey walk out of the bar. The fish had taken the bait. But look what usually happens to bait. I didn’t drive by Cordelia’s apartment on my way out of the Quarter.
- •I held my temper. Joey was playing with me, testing my limits. “I like men. I even love some men. I just get real bored with them when they take their clothes off.”
- •I started to say it wasn’t her money but her mortal soul that I was worried about, but Joey wouldn’t understand and I was beyond explaining it.
- •I turned into the driveway of Lindsey’s office.
- •I finally broke the silence by asking, “Is she okay?”
- •I knew she was right. Law and justice aren’t the same thing. “Is she okay? How badly hurt is she?”
- •I spun on my heel, angry at her. Then I turned back and said as gently as I could, “If you need my help, you know my number. Call me anytime.”
- •I headed in the direction he had indicated. For a moment, the sound of our footsteps mingled, then his faded into the distance and mine alone echoed.
- •I nodded and he continued.
- •I looked at the floor for several moments before I finally answered, “For a while. I lived there…I couldn’t get away from him.” Then I said, “I’d prefer to talk about something else.”
- •I spent most of the weekend at my apartment. No one called me, and I called no one.
- •I nodded slowly, but made no other reply.
- •I climbed into the backseat.
- •I got down to business. “So when does the ceiling fall on Zeke’s head?”
- •I handed the last box to Mr. Unfriendly, then hopped out of the truck. Zeke led the way back into the building. Mr. Silent followed me, closing the door on the cool night.
- •I gave both Betsy and Camille my phone number. Then, with Camille running interference, we headed back downstairs.
- •I didn’t know what to do except respond. I had not expected this. I had come up with dozens of scenarios, but none of them had included Lindsey kissing me.
- •I shrugged, then since she was fronting the money, answered, “No, not for you, it shouldn’t be.”
- •I crossed my arms over my chest, a barricade of sorts. “I need a shrink’s advice,” was my opening. “How do you say no when someone’s making a sexual advance that you’re not sure you want?”
- •I said nothing. I didn’t think Lindsey deserved the accident, but that was a road she had to walk.
- •I felt a surge of jealousy. I knew I wasn’t Cordelia’s first lover, but that wasn’t the same thing as hearing Lindsey describe this.
- •I checked the gun. It was loaded. I suddenly turned and pointed it at Algernon. He stopped and merely looked at me.
- •In the alley you will meet your escort to the boat. That way no one can follow you or recognize your car.
- •I switched it on and found the path into the dark woods.
- •I took one of the pay packets out and waved it in Vern’s face. Then I said, “I don’t pay sexist assholes. You want your money, you’d better deal with me.”
- •I didn’t. That was the horrible thing. “Load up the kids,” I said, to buy time. Maybe if I got enough men out of here I could chance pulling my gun.
- •I held the kiss a little longer, giving her time to get the key securely under her tongue. Then I broke it off. I wondered what Cordelia was thinking.
- •I padlocked the door. It would keep them in, but it would also keep the crew out.
- •I handed it to Ron, and said, “Thanks a lot. I’ve got to get these kids to bed now. It’s almost midnight and they’re very tired.”
- •I lifted the next girl. She was silent, asking no questions, expecting nothing. Cordelia was helping me now, we both put the next two girls in at the same time. Then in silence, the last two.
- •I aimed at him and fired.
- •I told my tale as best I could, still waiting for word on Cordelia and the kids.
- •I just shrugged, terrified to lift my barricades. I couldn’t admit how desperately I wanted to revive the time when I was sure she loved me.
- •I looked at Cordelia. Usually we’re locked in our own world, our own needs and desires. Cordelia had just let me into a place where she was small and scared. “I’m so afraid of you,” I admitted.
- •I let the tension ease out of me and closed my eyes.
- •I got up to leave. His money could buy many things. A lesson in the cost of betrayal was one of them. Francois had made his choices.
- •I ignored that. “Why do you think Francois won’t betray you?”
- •I started to point out that was clichéd, too, but decided that Kessler wasn’t interested in knowing that. I didn’t talk.
- •I slammed my heel into his instep, causing him to howl in pain.
- •I didn’t know if Barbara was asking a rhetorical question or asking me about myself. I answered as if it were the latter, “The memory remains. Don’t silence her. Don’t ever blame her.”
- •I watched them as they went down the hall, not wanting to go with them. Instead, I walked back the way I came, giving Barbara and Cissy time to find their way home.
- •I didn’t look back as we drove away.
I didn’t need to look around to know that Joey had arrived.
“Karen, darling,” he said, leaning to give her the obligatory air kiss. Turning to me he said, “Micky, good to see you again.” We settled for shaking hands. He was too smooth for me to be able to guess whether he really didn’t want me here, whether he didn’t care, or, least likely, he really was glad to see me.
We followed him back into the same private room in which he’d last counted out the money. Joey set his briefcase on the table, but didn’t open it. He got down to business.
“So, Karen, as I mentioned in our phone call, we’d really appreciate it if you’d roll over your investment once again.”
Karen licked her lips nervously, then glanced at me.
“What’s this investment in?” I asked. For five thousand dollars I might do more than be a piece of movable furniture.
“Some offshore work,” Joey replied.
“Can you be more specific?” I returned.
“Trade secret,” was his answer. He tried to give me a disarming smile, but the edge of his irritation was showing.
“So you want Karen to invest in something about which you’ll only reveal that it takes place in the water?” I said.
“She also knows she makes money off of it,” Joey replied. “That’s usually the most important thing.”
“Is this offshore thing legal?” I demanded.
“Who is this lady, anyway?” Joey asked, turning to Karen, trying his disarming smile on her.
“Michele Knight. She’s a financial advisor,” Karen answered.
“Financial advisor?” Joey turned to me. “When did you stop being a private eye?” He didn’t bother smiling.
“This is an unusual investment. Karen felt she needed an unusual type of advisor,” I replied. In the Sans Pareil Club, Joey’s tough act could only go so far.
“Unusual, yeah. A dyke dick from downtown,” Joey responded, giving me a hard look.
“Oh, Joey, don’t be parochial,” Karen cut in. “Anthony has no problem with her being here. You shouldn’t.” Anthony was Anthony Colombé. Joey had been put on notice that Karen was on first-name terms with one of the most powerful men in town. Whatever Karen’s involvement with him, she had no problem using it. With Karen hanging on his arm, Colombé projected the image of a virile man, able to satisfy young, attractive women. It was an impression that he obviously cared a great deal about. Karen, in turn, was treated as one of his inner circle, although I suspected that if she really were a true intimate of his instead of just someone he found very useful, she wouldn’t need my help in dealing with Joey and his unnamed friends.
“Sorry,” Joey answered. “No offense meant.”
“So what is it, Joey? Drugs?” I asked. “I’m not the cops. I just want to know what my client’s getting into.”
“Not drugs. I can promise you that,” he replied.
“Yeah? What else earns money like this?” I returned.
“Come on, Karen. Call off your attack dog,” he appealed to her. “I can’t really tell you what it is. I can promise you it’s not illegal drugs. Not even legal drugs. It’s just a real good and easy way for you to earn money.”
“How do you turn a profit so quickly?” I asked.
Joey didn’t answer my question. He continued speaking to Karen. “I’ll give you some more information next time, but I’m late for another meeting. Yes or no?” he finished with a nod at the briefcase.
“What if she says no?” I asked.
He faked a nonchalant shrug. “If the lady says no, the lady says no. It would, however, come at an inconvenient time. We would really appreciate your continued support.” Joey had his hand on the briefcase.
“I think I’d prefer not to—” Karen started.
“The lady says yes,” I cut in. It wasn’t much of a threat. It didn’t need to be. One person’s inconvenience is another person’s already dug grave.
Joey wasted no time in snatching up his briefcase and smiling ever so pleasantly as he said, “Thanks, ladies. I assume I’ll see you both next time.” Then he was gone.
Karen turned from the just closed door to me and said. “Micky, what the hell was that about? I thought you wanted me out of this?”
“I do,” I retorted. “I’d just prefer you get out of it alive rather than dead.”
“What? Oh, be serious. Joey’s not going to—”
“Karen, I am serious. Don’t let his smooth and pleasant exterior fool you. These are not men you inconvenience. Whatever you cost them, it will cost you more. Understand?”
“I guess. But I—”
We were interrupted by a discreet knock on the door.
“Come in,” Karen said, then, “Hello, Francois,” to the man who entered. He was tall, still handsome, but the long, late nights were beginning to show. His dark hair was receding, the bags under his eyes needed the soft light of evening to remain imperceptible. Their gray color matched his distant expression.
“Miss Holloway, Mr. Colombé wishes your company, if it is convenient for you.” Mr. Colombé wanted his façade in place.
“Of course,” she replied, then to me, “I’ll call you later.” Karen turned and followed Francois out of the room. I trailed behind.
As it was clear that I wasn’t included in the invitation (not that I wanted to be), I told Karen, “I’ll find my own way home.”
“That’s not necessary,” she replied, giving me a quick social kiss on the cheek. It wouldn’t do for our parting to be too businesslike in the Sans Pareil Club. “Francois, please see to Micky,” Karen instructed, then left us for Anthony Colombé.
“If you’ll follow me, Ms. Knight,” Francois said.
Impressive, I thought, as I followed Francois to the entryway, his smooth transition from Miss to Ms., knowing automatically which I would prefer. It was a skill a man like Anthony Colombé could afford.
“Charles,” Francois said softly. One of the doormen snapped to attention despite several other people vying for his services.
I noticed a black Porsche turning down the long drive of the club. Joey. Of course, he would have a Porsche. And, I noted, a vanity plate: ET OR B E10. “Eat or Be Eaten”—the perfect sentiment for a shark.
“Please bring one of Mr. Colombé’s cars for Ms. Knight,” Francois instructed the doorman. “The Mercedes, I think.”
“Thank you,” I told Francois. He nodded briefly and reentered the club.
The car was a vintage Mercedes driven by a strikingly good-looking woman. I gave her my address, then offered directions, which she declined. “That’s beyond Desire, isn’t it?” she asked, her smile full lipped and sensual. Anthony Colombé probably required his drivers to memorize the streets of the greater New Orleans area.
“Will there be anything else?” she asked as she pulled in front of my place.
I thought about asking her if she was flirting with me because she wanted to or if it was part of the job. I also thought of inviting her upstairs and pumping her about Anthony Colombé, but knew she was too well trained and well paid to divulge anything.
“No, nothing,” I replied. “Thanks for the ride.”
“My pleasure,” was her well-trained answer.
I got out of the Mercedes, which looked drastically out of place on my run-down block. The car disappeared, its engine a bare purr. I entered my building and climbed the three flights of stairs to my apartment.
Cordelia had left a message. She was just going to bed when I returned her call; I had forgotten it was an hour later in Boston. We chatted for a bit, I agreed to pick her up at the airport, and then I let her go on to bed, as she had to give a presentation in the morning.
I prowled around my apartment for a while, doing a few necessary and neglected chores like dealing with Hepplewhite’s lovely litter box. I was trying to figure out the best approach to get Karen out of the deep shit she had done a swan dive into. Nothing elegant and easy came to mind.
I went to bed. But it wasn’t Karen and her troubles that drifted by as I began to fall asleep. Instead it was Cissy, with her downcast and hidden eyes.
Chapter 8
I had been awakened sometime past midnight by the lash of rain and the boom of close thunder. The storm had gone nowhere during the night and was still pouring rain with a vengeance when my alarm clock goaded me out of bed.
Already in an irritable mood, I decided to compound it by calling Karen. All I got was her answering machine. I left a message telling her to call me. I had a few questions I wanted answered.
Karen didn’t call back until late in the afternoon.
“About time,” I greeted her.
“I just got in,” she defended. “I spent the night at Anthony’s.”
“And, of course, cooed and aahed at breakfast as if you’d really had sex.”
“All right, Micky, what do you want?”
“Answers. Honest answers. How did you get involved with Joey?”
“I’ve already told you that. I met him at the Sans Pareil Club.”
“So you met this guy, he said, ‘Yo, babe, want to earn some money’ and you just coughed up, what? Fifty?”
“No. I met him several times. And I started out with five.”
“Five?” Another lie she had told me. “How long has this been going on?” I demanded.
“Uh, I guess about eight months.”