- •I thought for a moment. “I don’t know. If I did, I don’t remember.”
- •I looked out at the Japanese maple. “Nice weather we’re having.”
- •I covered the receiver with my hand and repeated this to Abby.
- •Chapter Two
- •I leaned against the back door. Jane often had an interesting tale to tell, and, thanks to the volume of her voice, it was easy to eavesdrop on her phone calls. Only the odd word or two escaped me.
- •I looked at my mother, who looked pointedly at Karen’s hair.
- •I couldn’t blame Hunter or his drinking for the accident, though both had an effect on the aftermath. If he’d been sober, I’d still be called Frankie.
- •I let him carry on the rest of the way without comment. It felt like my eye had been whacked with a hammer.
- •I watched Marilyn change the IV bag and punch buttons on the various machines.
- •I closed my eyes and tried to think of something clever to say about Oedipus. Nothing came to mind. I checked the window again.
- •I shrugged. “He came stumbling in around midnight and started bugging me. When I told him to leave me alone, he grabbed me from behind, wrapped his arms around my chest, and started squeezing.”
- •I made a wry face. “Oh? And what about your boyfriend, Brad? I assume he’s the reason you’re getting dressed and putting on makeup.”
- •I watched the shaft of moonlight until I fell asleep, sometime after midnight. I dreamed about field corn, and Abby, and my name.
- •I remained where I was. Unless she got up to pinch me—and she’d been known to—I didn’t bother to correct myself.
- •I looked at my mother. “I wish they made seatbelts for mouths,” I said.
- •I should have gone straight over to Susan’s house.
- •I pulled up a chair and sat down next to Nana.
- •I blew the flame out. “Do you want me to let the dog go? I’d be more than happy to let him bite your hand off.”
- •I said, “Louise called, Abby. She said Belvedere’s doing fine. The Rimadyl is already working wonders.”
- •I closed my eyes and pressed my lips against her ear. “I don’t know what to do,” I said softly, not sure I wanted her to hear me.
- •I held her hand for a moment, savoring the sensation. Then I let it go.
- •I chewed the last of my Portobello. Susan ordered dessert, a crème brûlée.
- •I caught my mother’s eye. It was choke, not laugh.
- •I felt myself tensing up. I took a deep breath, willing my muscles to relax. “The guys you’ve dated. Did you do this with any of them?”
- •I laughed. “I’m not early. You’re late. Please note, however, that I didn’t blow the horn. I didn’t even get out and knock.”
- •I pulled the waistband of my underwear down and considered my reflection in the bathroom’s full-length mirror. My hysterectomy scar was still angry and red.
- •I buckled my belt and walked through the door Abby held open for me.
- •I laughed. “It sneaks up on you. Abby and I were watching vh1 the other night. They had some nostalgia show on, and what it was nostalgic for was the eighties.”
- •I hesitated. “I’m afraid she’ll fall into the wrong hands. I caught Jake holding her under the pond with a stick.”
- •I shook my head emphatically. “No way. She’ll have gravy,” I said to the woman with the hairnet, “and so will I.”
- •I nodded, taking a bite of dill pickle. “Yes. People had extra-marital affairs in 1923, just like they do now.”
- •I waited. Whatever I said, I didn’t want to sound shocked. The problem was that I was shocked.
- •I pushed away the plate of half-eaten roast beef and covered it with my napkin.
- •I opened my mouth to say, “What do you mean,” but I knew what she meant.
- •I laughed. “a kind of Stray Cats meets the Talking Heads sort of thing?”
- •I was beginning to feel the effects of a heavy dinner and a good deal of wine, and even though it meant the risk of falling asleep mid-sentence, I wanted to be more comfortable.
- •I refused to meet him at the Brentwood, suggesting instead that we meet for dinner at a Chinese restaurant called the Hang Chow. I told him that my mother and Nana would be coming with me.
- •I stood up. “Hi, Shirley. Please, have a seat.”
- •I nodded. “College. I want to be a professor.”
- •I propped my feet up on the glass-topped coffee table and picked a book from my mother’s library pile. It was Rubyfruit Jungle by Rita Mae Brown. I’d never heard of it.
- •I nodded happily. “I have my mother’s chariot for the evening. It’s at your disposal.”
- •I stepped into the weird hospital elevator with its facing doors and pressed the button for the fourth floor.
- •I made a whooshing sound.
- •I stood there, dumbstruck. Condensation from the glass in my hand dripped down my arm. Jean finished her drink and poured another.
- •I laughed. “You and me both. Tell me, before you left for Yugoslavia, were you seeing anyone?”
- •I nodded dumbly. Susan stepped back. Had I been blind? There had always been someone. I relied on her, I couldn’t live without her, I loved her.
- •I took the doll from her and put it back on the dresser. Across the hall, the bathroom door opened. My mother stood there, holding a curling iron.
- •I picked up a Life magazine and sat next to Abby on the bed. “Can I offer you some reading material? This is all about Jackie Kennedy.”
- •In the personnel office, Edna spoke to a gray-haired woman in gold-rimmed glasses who, according to her nameplate, was Marcella Rockway.
- •I nodded. Abby bristled, and I saw Edna put a hand on her arm.
- •I stared at her in amazement. Nana could be stubborn, but I’d never known her to stand up to my grandfather so firmly that he backed down.
- •I opened my mouth to say I didn’t care what it cost. Abby put her hand on my leg again. She shook her head slightly.
- •I said, “How can you just sit there like you’re attending a second grade piano recital? You’re polite, but you’re bored. You’re waiting for it all to be over.”
- •I sat up. I didn’t want to look at her, and I didn’t want to cry, so I closed my eyes.
- •I took her by the hands and helped her to her feet. “Thanks for the warning, but I’ve made my decision. It’s you, me, and Rosalyn. I just hope she doesn’t hog the covers.”
- •I glanced at the illuminated dial of my watch. “I don’t care about the speeding ticket. Put your foot down.”
- •I hung up the phone. “I’ll just bet,” I said, putting my credit card back into my wallet. Abby came out of the bathroom, a white towel wrapped around her body.
- •Vivian laughed. “What’s your favorite color, Poppy?”
Chapter Two
Sometimes I think my story is about slutty Avon ladies. And not just one—one I could chalk up to chance. Two slutty Avon ladies feel more like a curse than a coincidence.
Today, the Avon lady is an anachronism, like the vacuum cleaner salesman or the Fuller Brush man. The only thing people sell door-to-door these days is eternal salvation, but when I was a kid, “Avon calling” was a regular event. A woman stopped by at least once a month, and whatever my mother happened to be doing, she put it aside for half an hour to sit down and sample the hand lotion, lipstick, and perfume. Like most of the women in our blue-collar Michigan neighborhood, my mother didn’t wear a lot of makeup. She was a low-maintenance woman. At our house, the Avon lady’s profit margins were small. The only thing we bought on a regular basis was Skin So Soft body splash. We used it to take fleas off the cat.
Avon lady was a high turnover job. We seemed to have a new one every six months. I could never tell them apart—not, that is, until Karen Rostenkowski.
It was the first day of summer vacation, and I had big plans for the three months before I started eighth grade—softball, swimming, and building myself a mini-bike. I’d bought an old frame for five dollars at a yard sale, and my mother said I could have the engine from the broken lawnmower in the back of our garage. My father had forbidden me to use any of his tools, but I didn’t care. My friend Jack Leinweber’s father had died back in January, leaving him unrestricted access to a two-tiered mechanic’s chest.
I was on my way to Jack’s house when the phone rang.
We lived in a three-bedroom ranch just outside of Detroit. The houses in our subdivision were small brick bungalows, built so close together that when our next-door neighbor stood in his bedroom and blew his nose, we could hear it in our kitchen. Everyone on our street knew everyone else’s business, and there was a well-established telephone tree for up-to-the-minute reportage.
The caller was Jane, Jack’s mother. Grief had done little to dull Jane’s interest in neighborhood events. Grief had done little to Jane, period. Like my mother, she was a transplanted Southerner. Jane was from rural Georgia, my mother from Raleigh, North Carolina. They’d both married Yankee men, moved north with them, and lived to regret it. My parents’ marriage was far from happy. Lately, I’d gotten the distinct impression that my mother envied Jane. God knows I envied Jack.
“Listen, honey,” Jane said. “Jack’s waiting for you out in the garage. I don’t know what all mess ya’ll are fixing to make, but I don’t want any more oil on that concrete floor. After Bob died, I spent a month of Sundays cleaning up the drips from his motorcycle, and I have just finished painting in there. I’d rather you did whatever it is outdoors, but Jack says you have to be inside. Bring some cardboard or newspapers to put down, would you? I told Jack, but he won’t remember. Takes after his daddy.”
“Sure,” I said.
“Good girl. Now, is your mother handy? I want to speak at her.”
My mother sat at the kitchen table reading a book. I held the phone out to her. “Are you handy? Jane wants to speak at you.”
“And she means that literally,” my mother replied. “What does she want?”
“She didn’t say.”
“Hell’s bells.”
My mother put the book down and pulled off her left earring. I handed her the receiver. Jane and my mother had a love-hate relationship. Jane loved to talk; my mother hated listening to her. Their friendship was based on close proximity, cultural affiliation, and my mother’s thinly stretched politeness.
“Hello, Jane,” she said, settling in for a long haul. “What’s happening?”