- •Unforgettable
- •It's true — oh, how Rett wanted to say it. It took
- •If she'd been out last night. The cheese and cracker remains on the table were Trish's favorite up-till-dawn snack.
- •In that instant, Rett was sixteen again, hearing the crack of some boyfriend's hand across her mother's face. I will not be a victim. I am not my mother.
- •Inhale . . . Expanding ribs and stomach, feeling the muscles around her diaphragm pulling for even more
- •It was unreasonable that her heart beat faster. She
- •Ing next to her control panel. "Do the numbers cue by themselves or should I do it?"
- •It sounded too much like predestination to Rett. "But can't a building be more than its blueprint? Isn't that what art is all about?"
- •Violinists. She and Zip finished their beers and danced again.
- •I'll go, she promised herself sleepily. Not because Cinny asked, and only if her schedule was clear. Then she'd go, maybe . . .
- •It hadn't occurred to Rett to wonder how Cinny had found her to begin with. She'd moved around a lot in the early years. "Technology has its definite upside."
- •It seemed impossible, then, that the Top Hat Club
- •It should not have felt as good as it did. Rett prayed that Angel was unaware of it.
- •It wasn't quite the way Rett remembered it. "I never thought of myself as popular. I didn't care."
- •In stone about being with women who were in other relationships was melting away.
- •It was the kind of day when the expanse of lake was the perfect orchestra pit and Canada only the first balcony. When she finished she'd turned, flushed with success, to face Bruce and her mother.
- •Ignoring her daughter's obvious discomfort, Mrs. Martinetta asked, "Do you like Italian food?"
- •It was going to be a long time until Thursday night.
- •I can't hold her back from being with her family,
- •Is this happiness, Rett wondered? The euphoria was more powerful than the post-performance rush. The words were addictive — she wanted to say them over and over. "I love you."
- •If she hadn't wanted to talk about it, she wouldn't have brought it up. "Don't ask, don't tell is a real bitch, isn't it?"
- •It might have worked if Cinny hadn't leaned over Kate and said slowly and clearly, "Do you really want to know what makes me happy, Kate? Really?"
- •Voice broke all by itself. "I think we're going to need Natalie for security."
- •It was so eloquently said that Rett wanted to kiss him. She contented herself with a hug.
- •It was near midnight when they clambered up the hill behind the school and sat in the cool night air.
- •Ing altitude. Please sit down and fasten your seatbelt." The attendant's voice took on a menacing quality.
- •It wasn't a dream.
It should not have felt as good as it did. Rett prayed that Angel was unaware of it.
"So we decided it was high time for ladies' night out. I'm so glad we came," Bunny said. "Cinny saw the notice in the paper."
"My agent sort of pulled it out of the hat. A friend of a friend knows the owner. The place is packed, so I guess it's worth his while."
Rett was suddenly acutely aware that the zipper on the front of the jumpsuit had slipped down a bit lower somewhere along the way. Cleavage is not a crime, she told herself, though you might want to escape before you expose your belly button. With a sigh of relief she heard the sax player tuning up and she made her excuses.
"We're going to see you at the picnic on Sunday, right?" Bunny shouted over the sudden twang of the guitar. "There's going to be a pajama party at my house Friday night. No boys."
"Sounds fun," Rett lied. Right, a sleepover. Sure, why not just have her roll a sleeping bag out between Cinny and Angel. That would be conducive to sleep.
"Oh, it will be. I'll be making some of my world-famous rum punch. The kids are staying at my mom's all weekend and I'm going to par-tay."
Rett went into the next set feeling as if she'd landed on another planet. Her thigh was hot where it had been up against Cinny's, and Angel's fiery topaz gaze had left her breathless. Cool, calm, professional Rett Jamison was long gone. She wasn't the Rett
Jamison she'd been in high school — oh no — this was a new Rett Jamison who couldn't think past her libido.
The mood in the second half was definitely lighter as they moved away from blues toward jazzy, contem¬porary numbers. Most were songs she could sing in her sleep, and she was able to put her turmoil aside and enjoy the music. Well, almost. When the per¬formance was over and she had escaped to the back room she wondered how she'd avoid going out front again.
Angel was already there.
Rett found herself so tongue-tied she couldn't even say hello.
"I'm sorry." Angel looked more approachable now. "I should have called. A few days after we saw each other I left for summer vacation, but I could have called first."
"I really did lose your number."
Angel's lips twitched. "I believe you. I was being childish, and sometimes I can't help myself. Anyway, I had the feeling I'd be seeing you here."
"How did you know I was going to come?"
"Cinny told me she had you just about persuaded. We talked because she wanted me to do a guest lecture while I was here."
"So you didn't call me, but you did check up on me because you knew who I was."
Angel colored slightly. "I know it sounds a little homeroom, but Cinny offered the information. I didn't ask."
"Oh, I feel so much better." Rett didn't know quite what to feel aside from the pulsing ache in several increasingly influential parts of her body.
"I hadn't forgotten how good she was at persuading you to do things." Angel waved a hand. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that."
Rett liked Angel's forthrightness, but the remark stung. "Yes, you did."
"You're right. I did." Angel looked at her steadily. "I didn't call because I knew there was a chance she would be in the way again. I don't know who you've become over the years, and I didn't know if she would still —" Angel hesitated. "I just didn't want to go down that road again. What happened over twenty years ago seems like it shouldn't have anything to do with right now, you and me. But it does."
"It does," Rett admitted. "I've been looking forward to and dreading this."
Angel bit her lip. "Then don't talk to me until she's out of your system, one way or another."
"Who says she's in my system—"
"I'm serious, Rett. It took me a long time to stop looking for you in every woman I met, but I did it." She rubbed her face with her hands and then ran her fingers through her hair. "I think it's pretty obvious that you could become very important to me all over again. I'm not going to let that happen if there's no chance of my being happy."
Rett wanted to pounce on Angel and it made following the conversation very hard. "So we're play¬ing by your rules."
"I'm sorry if it seems that way. I just don't want to play by her rules." Angel half-smiled, then stared at the floor. "The funny thing is, I'm finding that I like this Cinny a lot. She deserves her own chance."
"I feel like some sort of door prize."
Angel looked up at her then. "Do you really not
know? I think half the girls in our class were half in love with you. There was something about you, there still is—"
"I remember the name-calling, I remember the fights. I don't remember much in the way of love, half or whole."
"That's because you were only looking at her for it. Why do you think some of the boys had it in for you? The finely honed teenage male intuition for competition made you dangerous. But there wasn't a girls' club you couldn't join."