- •I took the case. Somebody had to do it and I’m too poor to keep my hands clean.
- •Chapter 2
- •I also let that pass. Danny has an exaggerated opinion of my decadence.
- •I started to put my sweater back on.
- •I didn’t wait long, fortunately, because money does not guarantee taste, as this sitting room proved.
- •I decided the walk would do me good. Besides, I didn’t think I had the exact change for a bus or the patience for Quarter parking.
- •I handed her my private investigator’s license. She looked at it for a minute.
- •It was too much. I had to burst out laughing. I was remembering why he had left me. It was back in sixth grade. This only caused Barbara to look more concerned. Maybe I had gone crazy.
- •I didn’t see her again until after lunch. We ran into each other in the bathroom.
- •I handed him over. He let out a breathy mew at being moved, but he didn’t seem to mind too much. Cordelia pulled her jacket around him. He was a little marmalade cat with big green eyes.
- •I shrugged to show that it wasn’t important. I turned back down the way we came.
- •It was Danny.
- •It was Monday morning again. But this was the last Monday morning that I would have to deal with bright and early, at least for a while.
- •I walked out of the door and into one of the guards.
- •I dialed Sergeant Ranson’s number. Some bored clerk answered.
- •I tripped instead, doing what I hoped they wouldn’t notice was a shoulder roll. I used my landing as an excuse to make some noise.
- •I was sitting there feeling very dirty, not to mention sorry for myself, when Danny Clayton walked by. Without recognizing me, I might add.
- •I told them my story with only a slight interruption for dinner. It took me over two hours, between my fatigue and Ranson’s questions.
- •I started to protest, but was interrupted by the phone. Danny picked it up, then handed it to me. It was Ranson.
- •Visiting hours wouldn’t start for a while, so my first destination was Sergeant Ranson’s office to see if she had arrested Milo and cohorts yet.
- •I had to say something or I’d start sniffling.
- •I started laughing. It wasn’t that funny, but it was too absurd for my present state of mind.
- •I shuddered. It wasn’t a pleasant thought.
- •I looked up. Miss Clavish was standing there, in her prim navy blue dress, wearing white gloves and holding a large shotgun. That was the thunderclap—she had fired over our heads and into the wall.
- •I started to protest, to say that as long as Barbara Selby was in this hospital, I wasn’t dropping out, but Ranson waved me silent.
- •I slowly sat up, then slid off the examining table and assumed a standing position.
- •I picked up my canvas bag, found the keys that Ms. (it had to be Ms., not Miss, after that shotgun trick) Clavish had removed from my door. I locked up and we left.
- •I finished in the bathroom in time to hear the tail end of her last message. It was a male voice saying he’d see her real soon and that he loved her and so on.
- •I stuck my head in.
- •I went back into the living room and put on the Brandenburg Concertos to lend a cultured air to this affair. Danny nodded approval at my choice.
- •I knew that by “in time” she meant Barbara more than she meant me. I was glad that Barbara hadn’t been forgotten.
- •I picked up the heavy platter and carried it out to the table.
- •I heard my answering machine being played back.
- •I made introductions. Torbin explained his plans for the next few days. Good food, great movies, and perhaps a few lessons on makeup. I didn’t ask whether he meant Frankie or me.
- •I got in, leaving my door open, and turned the ignition. The engine hummed smoothly, all the usual clanking sounds gone.
- •I quickly put the tools away. Ben was staring at the unchanging marsh when I came back.
- •I spotted Ranson.
- •I noticed a patch of yellow under one of the rags. I picked it up. A half-empty tube of horse liniment. Equus Ben-Gay. No, I couldn’t do that. Not even to Karen Holloway.
- •I saw Frankie at the far edge of the light. He was standing by himself, waiting, it seemed.
- •I nodded. She opened the door. The hallway was empty.
- •I kissed her on the mouth. Then I put my arms around her and held her. She returned the embrace and the kiss for a moment, then she broke off.
- •It wasn’t a disaster, it was delicious. Fortunately, neither Ranson nor I had bet on it being inedible.
- •I looked at her like she was crazy.
- •I was close enough to see Cordelia’s face. The barrel of Ben’s gun was pressed against her neck. Her eyes were a blazing blue against the stark paleness of her skin.
- •I remembered Alma, small, pale blond, and eight months pregnant. David, their son, pale like his mother, was three.
- •I refused to bow my head. I had nothing to pray for.
- •I jerked. Other hunters with other guns aiming at other people.
- •I nodded, knowing I was asking too much.
- •I nodded. “Eight months.”
- •I puzzled for a minute.
- •I was hungry. All I’d had to eat so far today were the crawfish on the pier.
- •I put my hand on her arm to stop her.
- •I shrugged.
- •I led the way and lit some candles and a hurricane lantern to light the kitchen. I started the wood stove. It was chilly in here.
- •I turned back to her, but she stood there, no words coming forth.
- •I washed my face, but I still looked like shit.
- •I shook my head. Ranson had to be right, it couldn’t mean anything.
- •I pretended to think for a minute.
- •I shrugged. I didn’t want Cordelia to be hit, but I couldn’t write Danny’s death warrant to save her. The thug lifted his hand again.
- •I stood beside her, next to the door, not wanting to let her go. I started to give her directions.
- •Voices carried from the lawn. I stopped, afraid that, if I could hear them, they could hear me.
- •I’m still alive. Oh, shit, how am I going to pay for this, was my last thought.
- •I was. Even the goulash that Barbara was eating looked appetizing. The nurse did the usual nurse things to me, then went off to see about getting me some food.
I nodded. “Eight months.”
“Four, then, really. His mistress, the woman you heard him beat, well, maybe I could have rationalized her death. She hooked up with him for his money and what she could get out of him. He didn’t get a chance to destroy her letters, that’s how I found out. But he added three innocent people and an unborn child.” She paused. Suddenly, she pounded her fist against her knee. “Damn him! I hate him!” She was crying. “See, I have selfish reasons. I hate living my life under his shadow. Goddamn him!” She hit the wall.
“Cordelia,” I said. I gripped her shoulders in my hands, not wanting her to hurt herself. “Cordelia, we’ve got to stop…don’t hurt yourself.”
She shook herself and wiped her tears. “I’m sorry,” she said. “You’re dripping wet. Let’s go inside. You need some dry clothes.” She put a hand over one of mine, pressed it, then let it go and got up.
“Yes, I must look like a drowned rat,” I said as I opened my door.
“No, not a rat,” she said following behind me. “Rats don’t have curly hair.”
I turned on a few lights. Hepplewhite winked an eye at me, stretched, and then curled up and went back to sleep. Thanks, Hep, glad to know you’ve missed me. Hutch and Ms. Clavish must have been taking good care of her.
“Can you make some coffee while I get changed?” I asked Cordelia. I started looking in my closet.
She went into the kitchen. I found an old pair of jeans. They had a ripped knee, but were clean and would fit.
“Micky,” Cordelia said, poking her head out of the kitchen. “Devastating news. There is no coffee of any kind.”
“Damn,” I said. “Lousy cops. They must have drunk it all. I don’t guess they expected me back so soon.” Hutch had probably used up my coffee, figuring he would pay me back before I even knew it was missing.
“Why are you packing?” she asked, looking at me.
I had thrown a couple of pairs of underwear and a T-shirt or two into a small duffel bag.
“I’m going out to the shipyard. I’m going to spend the night there,” I said, realizing it had been my intention all along. I didn’t want Cordelia here, because she would stop me. “I’ll come back tomorrow,” I justified. “And I’ll call Ranson and let her scream and yell at me as much as she likes. There are some good-byes that I never said properly,” I continued, “and I have to go. Please don’t try to stop me.”
“No, I won’t,” she answered. “Can I help?”
“I think I’ve got everything, but thanks.”
“Can I drive you somewhere?”
“My car is a few blocks over, hidden in a friend’s garage.”
“Mine’s in front. I’ll take you.”
I nodded agreement. I didn’t have many more dry clothes to change into and my raincoat was at Ranson’s.
I finished what little packing I had to do, scratched Hep’s ears, turned out the lights, and we left.
Cordelia’s car was parked right across the street. I should have noticed it on my way here, but I hadn’t. We got in and I gave her directions to my car.
“Micky,” she said as we pulled away from the curb. “I’m so sorry.” She glanced quickly at me, then back to her driving.
“For what? You’ve done nothing,” I answered.
“Someone from my family needs to apologize to you. I doubt anyone else has.”
“You can’t make up for somebody else’s sins. You will spend your whole life trying and never get close. It’s nearly impossible to make up for our own,” I said more for myself than for her.
“I need this. I need a closure. I need…forgiveness,” she said. “You’re the only person who can give it to me.”
“You’ve done nothing that requires forgiveness,” I replied. “At least, not to me,” I added.
“If he had been five minutes later down that road…” She trailed off. We came to where my car was.
“Yeah, and if we had been five minutes later or earlier. If David didn’t need to pee one more time before he left his grandmother’s or if I had decided I needed to or any other number of things, this wouldn’t have happened,” I said. “You and I are not responsible,” I added with finality. I picked up my duffel bag from the floor. A car behind us honked. Cordelia put a hand on my arm to restrain me.
“Let me go with you,” she said. She pulled the car forward to let the honking car pass. “Somehow, you and I are intertwined. Now that I’ve finally been able to bring the subject up,” she said with a rueful look, “I can’t let it or you go just yet.”