I’m to blame for that, too, Rand thought. If I’d offered a hand instead of a smirk, if I’d congratulated instead of competed. If I’d been the man then that I am now . . .
Never mind that. He had to
send to Elayne. The proper course was to send help for evacuating the
city, Asha’man and loyal Aes Sedai to make gateways and free as
many people as possible—and to make certain that for now, the
Trollocs remained in Caemlyn.
“Well, I guess those
memories of yours are good for something, then,” Perrin said.
“Do you
want to know the thing that twists my brain in knots, Perrin?” Rand
said softly. “The thing that gives me shivers, like the cold breath
of the Shadow itself? The taint is what made me mad and
what gave me memories from my past life. They came as Lews Therin
whispering to me. But that very insanity is the thing giving me the
clues I need to win. Don’t you see? If I win this, it will be the
taint
itself
that led to the Dark One’s fall.”
Perrin whistled softly.
Redemption,
Rand thought. When
I tried this last time, my madness destroyed us.
This
time, it will save us.
“Go to
your wife, Perrin,” Rand said, glancing at the sky. “This is the
last night of anything resembling peace you shall know before the
end. I’ll investigate and see how bad things are in Andor.” He
looked back at his friend. “I will not forget my promise. Unity
must come before all else. I lost last time precisely because I threw
unity aside.”
Perrin nodded, then rested a
hand on Rand’s shoulder. “The Light illumine you.”
“And you, my friend.”