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‘That’s just the reason — she has got lots of money, and you have got none.’

‘Just the reason why she should refuse me, you should say.’ ‘Well — what if she does? There’s no harm done. ‘Faint heart never won fair lady.’ You’ve everything to back you —

Mrs. Val is led by Undy Scott, and Undy is all on your side.’ ‘But she has got guardians, hasn’t she?’

‘Yes — her father’s first cousin, old Sam Golightly. He is dying; or dead probably by this time; only Mrs. Val won’t have the news brought to her, because of this party. He had a fit of apoplexy yesterday. Then there’s her father’s brother-in-law, Figgs; he’s bedridden. When old Golightly is off the hooks altogether, another will be chosen, and Undy talks of putting in my name as that of a family friend; so you’ll have everything to assist you.’

Charley looked very grave. He had not been in the habit of discussing such matters, but it seemed to him, that if Alaric was about to become in any legal manner the guardian of Miss Golightly’s fortune, that that in itself was reason enough why he, Alaric, should not propose such a match as this. Needy men, to be sure, did often marry rich ladies, and the world looked on and regarded it only as a matter of course; but surely it would be the duty of a guardian to protect his ward from such a fate, if it were in his power to do so.

Alaric, who saw something of what was going on in his cousin’s mind, essayed to remove the impression which was thus made. ‘Besides, you know, Clementina is no chicken. Her fortune is at her own disposal. All the guardians on

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earth cannot prevent her marrying you if she makes up her mind to do so.’

Charley gulped down his glass of wine, and then sat staring at the fire, saying nothing further. It was true enough that he was very poor — true enough that Miss Golightly’s fortune would set him on his legs, and make a man of him — true enough, perhaps, that no other expedient of which he could think would do so. But then there were so many arguments that were ‘strong against the deed.’ In the first place, he thought it impossible that he should be successful in such a suit, and then again it would hardly be honest to obtain such success, if it were possible; then, thirdly, he had no sort of affection whatsoever for Miss Golightly; and fourthly, lastly, and chiefly, he loved so dearly, tenderly, loved poor Katie Woodward.

As he thought of this, he felt horror-stricken with himself at allowing the idea of his becoming a suitor to another to dwell for an instant on his mind, and looking up with all the resolution which he was able to summon, he said —’It’s impossible, Alaric, quite impossible! I couldn’t do it.’

‘Then what do you mean to do?’ said Alaric, who was angry at having his scheme thus thwarted; ‘do you mean to be a beggar? — or if not, how do you intend to get out of your difficulties?’

‘I trust not a beggar,’ said Charley, sadly.

‘What other hope have you? what rational hope of setting yourself right?’

‘Perhaps I may do something by writing,’ said Charley, very bashfully.

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‘By writing! ha, ha, ha,’ and Alaric laughed somewhat cruelly at the poor navvy —’ do something by writing! what will you do by writing? will you make £20,000 — or 20,000 pence? Of all trades going, that, I should say, is likely to be the poorest for a poor man — the poorest and the most heart-breaking. What have you made already to encourage you?’

‘The editor says that ‘Crinoline and Macassar’ will come to £4 10s.’

‘And when will you get it?’

‘The editor says that the rule is to pay six months after the date of publication. The Daily Delight is only a new thing, you know. The editor says that, if the sale comes up to his expectations, he will increase the scale of pay.’

‘A prospect of £4 10s. for a fortnight’s hard work! That’s a bad look-out, my boy; you had better take the heiress.’

‘It may be a bad look-out,’ said Charley, whose spirit was raised by his cousin’s sneers —’but at any rate it’s honest. And I’ll tell you what, Alaric, I’d sooner earn £50 by writing for the press, than get £1,000 in any other way you can think of. It may be a poor trade in one way; and authors, I believe, are poor; but I am sure it has its consolations.’

‘Well, Charley, I hope with all my heart that you may find them. For my own part, seeing what a place the world is, seeing what are the general aspirations of other men, seeing what, as it appears to me, the Creator has intended for the goal of our labours, I look for advancement, prosperity, and such rank and station as I may be able to win for myself. The labourer is worthy of his hire, and I do not mean to refuse such wages as may come in my way.’

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‘Yes,’ said Charley, who, now that his spirit was roused, determined to fight his battle manfully, ‘yes, the labourer is worthy of his hire; but were I to get Miss Golightly’s fortune I should be taking the hire without labour.’

‘Bah!’ said Alaric.

‘It would be dishonest in every way, for I do not love her, and should not love her at the moment that I married her.’

‘Honesty!’ said Alaric, still sneering; ‘there is no sign of the dishonesty of the age so strong as the continual talk which one hears about honesty!’ It was quite manifest that Alaric had not sat at the feet of Undy Scott without profiting by the lessons which he had heard.

‘With what face,’ continued he, ‘can you pretend to be more honest than your neighbours?’

‘I know that it is wrong, and unmanly too, to hunt a girl down merely for what she has got.’

‘There are a great many wrong and unmanly men about, then,’ said Alaric. ‘Look through the Houses of Parliament, and see how many men there have married for money; aye, and made excellent husbands afterwards. I’ll tell you what it is, Charley, it is all humbug in you to pretend to be better than others; you are not a bit better; — mind, I do not say you are worse. We have none of us too much of this honesty of which we are so fond of prating. Where was your honesty when you ordered the coat for which you know you cannot pay? or when you swore to the bootmaker that he should have the amount of his little bill after next quarter-day, knowing in your heart at the time that he wouldn’t get a farthing of it? If you are so honest, why did you waste your money to-day in going to Chis-

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wick, instead of paying some portion of your debts? Honest! you are, I dare say, indifferently honest as the world goes, like the rest of us. But I think you might put the burden of Clementina’s fortune on your conscience without feeling much the worse for it after what you have already gone through.’

Charley became very red in the face as he sat silent, listening to Alaric’s address — nor did he speak at once at the first pause, so Alaric went on. ‘The truth, I take it, is, that at the present moment you have no personal fancy for this girl.’

‘No, I have not,’ said Charley.

‘And you are so incredibly careless as to all prudential considerations as to prefer your immediate personal fancies to the future welfare of your whole life. I can say no more. If you will think well of my proposition, I will do all I can to assist you. I have no doubt you would make a good husband to Miss Golightly, and that she would be very happy with you. If you think otherwise there is an end of it; but pray do not talk so much about your honesty — your tailor would arrest you tomorrow if he heard you.’

‘There are two kinds of honesty, I take it,’ said Charley, speaking with suppressed anger and sorrow visible in his face, ‘that which the world sees and that which it does not see. For myself, I have nothing to say in my own defence. I have made my bed badly, and must lie on it as it is. I certainly will not mend it by marrying a girl that I can never love. And as for you, Alaric, all who know you and love you watch your career with the greatest hope. We know your ambition, and all look to see you rise in the world. But in rising, as you will do,

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you should remember this — that nothing that is wrong can become right because other people do it.’

‘Well, Charley,’ said the other, ‘thank you for the lecture. I did not certainly expect it from you; but it is not on that account the less welcome. And now, suppose we go upstairs and dress for Mrs. Val;’ and so they went upstairs.

Katie’s heart beat high as she got out of the carriage — Mrs. Val’s private carriage had been kept on for the occasion — and saw before and above her on the stairs a crowd of muslin crushing its way on towards the room prepared for dancing. Katie had never been to a ball before. We hope that the word ball may not bring down on us the adverse criticism of the Morning Post. It was probably not a ball in the strictly fashionable sense of the word, but it was so to Katie to all intents and purposes. Her dancing had hitherto been done either at children’s parties, or as a sort of supplemental amusement to the evening tea-gatherings at Hampton or Hampton Court. She had never yet seen the muse worshipped with the premeditated ceremony of banished carpets, chalked floors, and hired musicians. Her heart consequently beat high as she made her way upstairs, linked arm-in-arm with Ugolina Neverbend.

‘Shall you dance much?’ said Ugolina. ‘Oh, I hope so,’ said Katie.

‘I shall not. It is an amusement of which I am peculiarly fond, and for which my active habits suit me.’ This was probably said with some allusion to her sister, who was apt to be short of breath. ‘But in the dances of the present day conversation is impossible, and I look upon any pursuit as barbaric which stops the “feast of reason and the flow of soul.”’

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Katie did not quite understand this, but she thought in her heart that she would not at all mind giving up talking for the whole evening if she could only get dancing enough. But on this matter her heart misgave her. To be sure, she was engaged to Charley for the first quadrille and second waltz; but there her engagements stopped, whereas Clementina, as she was aware, had a whole book full of them. What if she should get no more dancing when Charley’s good nature should have been expended? She had an idea that no one would care to dance with her when older partners were to be had. Ah, Katie, you do not yet know the extent of your riches, or half the wealth of your own attractions!

And then they all heard another little speech from Mrs. Val. ‘She was really quite ashamed — she really was — to see so many people; she could not wish any of her guests away, that would be impossible — though perhaps one or two might be spared,’ she said in a confidential whisper to Gertrude. Who the one or two might be it would be difficult to decide, as she had made the same whisper to every one; ‘but she really was ashamed; there was almost a crowd, and she had quite intended that the house should be nearly empty. The fact was, everybody asked had come, and as she could not, of course, have counted on that, why, she had got, you see, twice as many people as she had expected.’ And then she went on, and made the same speech to the next arrival.

Katie, who wanted to begin the play at the beginning, kept her eye anxiously on Charley, who was still standing with Lactimel Neverbend on his arm. ‘Oh, now,’ said she to herself, ‘if he should forget me and begin dancing with Miss Neverbend!’

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But then she remembered how he had jumped into the water, and determined that, even with such provocation as that, she must not be angry with him.

But there was no danger of Charley’s forgetting. ‘Come,’ said he, ‘we must not lose any more time, if we mean to dance the first set. Alaric will be our vis-à-vis — he is going to dance with Miss Neverbend,’ and so they stood up. Katie tightened her gloves, gave her dress a little shake, looked at her shoes, and then the work of the evening began.

‘I shouldn’t have liked to have sat down for the first dance,’ she said confidentially to Charley, ‘because it’s my first ball.’

‘Sit down! I don’t suppose you’ll be let to sit down the whole evening. You’ll be crying out for mercy about three or four o’clock in the morning.’

‘It’s you to go on now,’ said Katie, whose eyes were intent on the figure, and who would not have gone wrong herself, or allowed her partner to do so, on any consideration. And so the dance went on right merrily.

‘I’ve got to dance the first polka with Miss Golightly,’ said Charley.

‘And the next with me,’ said Katie. ‘You may be sure I shan’t forget that.’

‘You lucky man to get Miss Golightly for a partner. I am told she is the most beautiful dancer in the world.’

‘O no — Mademoiselle — — is much better,’ said Charley, naming the principal stage performer of the day. ‘If one is to go the whole hog, one had better do it thoroughly.’

Katie did not quite understand then what he meant, and merely replied that she would look at the performance. In this,

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however, she was destined to be disappointed, for Charley had hardly left her before Miss Golightly brought up to her the identical M. Delabarbe de l’Empereur who had so terribly put her out in the gardens. This was done so suddenly, that Katie’s presence of mind was quite insufficient to provide her with any means of escape. The Frenchman bowed very low and said nothing. Katie made a little curtsy, and was equally silent. Then she felt her own arm gathered up and put within his, and she stood up to take her share in the awful performance. She felt herself to be in such a nervous fright that she would willingly have been home again at Hampton if she could; but as this was utterly impossible, she had only to bethink herself of her steps, and get through the work as best she might.

Away went Charley and Clementina leading the throng; away went M. Jaquêtanàpe and Linda; away went another Frenchman, clasping in his arms the happy Ugolina. Away went Lactimel with a young Weights and Measures — and then came Katie’s turn. She pressed her lips together, shut her eyes, and felt the tall Frenchman’s arms behind her back, and made a start. ‘Twas like plunging into cold water on the first bathing day of the season —’ce n’est que le premier pas que coute.’ When once off Katie did not find it so bad. The Frenchman danced well, and Katie herself was a wicked little adept. At home, at Surbiton, dancing with another girl, she had with great triumph tired out the fingers both of her mother and sister, and forced them to own that it was impossible to put her down. M. de l’Empereur, therefore, had his work before him, and he did it like a man — as long as he could.

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Katie, who had not yet assumed the airs or will of a grownup young lady, thought that she was bound to go on as long as her grand partner chose to go with her. He, on the other hand, accustomed in his gallantry to obey all ladies’ wishes, considered himself bound to leave it to her to stop when she pleased. And so they went on with apparently interminable gyrations. Charley and the heiress had twice been in motion, and had twice stopped, and still they were going on; Ugolina had refreshed herself with many delicious observations, and Lactimel had thrice paused to advocate dancing for the million, and still they went on; the circle was gradually left to themselves, and still they went on; people stood round, some admiring and others pitying; and still they went on. Katie, thinking of her steps and her business, did not perceive that she and her partner were alone; and ever and anon, others of course joined in — and so they went on — and on — and on.

M. Delabarbe de l’Empereur was a strong and active man, but he began to perceive that the lady was too much for him. He was already melting away with his exertions, while his partner was as cool as a cucumber. She, with her active young legs, her lightly filled veins, and small agile frame, could have gone on almost for ever; but M. de l’Empereur was more encumbered. Gallantry was at last beat by nature, his overtasked muscles would do no more for him, and he was fain to stop, dropping his partner into a chair, and throwing himself in a state of utter exhaustion against the wall.

Katie was hardly out of breath as she received the congratulations of her friends; but at the moment she could not understand why they were quizzing her. In after times, how-

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