Sister Carrie
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friends he made were not celebrities. They were of a cheaper, a slightly more sensual and cruder, grade. He could not possibly take the pleasure in this company that he had in that of those fine frequenters of the Chicago resort. He was left to brood.
Slowly, exceedingly slowly, his desire to greet, conciliate, and make at home these people who visited the Warren Street place passed from him. More and more slowly the significance of the realm he had left began to be clear. It did not seem so wonderful to be in it when he was in it. It had seemed very easy for any one to get up there and have ample raiment and money to spend, but now that he was out of it, how far off it became. He began to see as one sees a city with a wall about it. Men were posted at the gates. You could not get in. Those inside did not care to come out to see who you were. They were so merry inside there that all those outside were forgotten, and he was on the outside.
Each day he could read in the evening papers of the doings within this walled city. In the notices of passengers for Europe he read the names of eminent frequenters of his old resort. In the theatrical column appeared, from time to time, announcements of the latest successes of men he had known. He knew that they were at their old gayeties. Pullmans were hauling them to and fro about the land, papers were greeting them with interesting mentions, the elegant lobbies of hotels and the glow of polished dining-rooms were keeping them close within the walled city. Men whom he had known, men whom he had tipped glasses with – rich men, and he was forgotten! Who was Mr. Wheeler? What was the Warren Street resort? Bah!
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If one thinks that such thoughts do not come to so common a type of mind – that such feelings require a higher mental development – I would urge for their consideration the fact that it is the higher mental development that does away with such thoughts. It is the higher mental development which induces philosophy and that fortitude which refuses to dwell upon such things – refuses to be made to suffer by their consideration. The common type of mind is exceedingly keen on all matters which relate to its physical welfare – exceedingly keen. It is the unintellectual miser who sweats blood at the loss of a hundred dollars. It is the Epictetus who smiles when the last vestige of physical welfare is removed.
The time came, in the third year, when this thinking began to produce results in the Warren Street place. The tide of patronage dropped a little below what it had been at its best since he had been there. This irritated and worried him.
There came a night when he confessed to Carrie that the business was not doing as well this month as it had the month before. This was in lieu of certain suggestions she had made concerning little things she wanted to buy. She had not failed to notice that he did not seem to consult her about buying clothes for himself. For the first time, it struck her as a ruse, or that he said it so that she would not think of asking for things. Her reply was mild enough, but her thoughts were rebellious. He was not looking after her at all. She was depending for her enjoyment upon the Vances.
And now the latter announced that they were going away. It was approaching spring, and they were going North.
«Oh, yes,» said Mrs. Vance to Carrie, «we think we might as well give up the flat and store our things. We'll be gone for the
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summer, and it would be a useless expense. I think we'll settle a little farther down town when we come back.»
Carrie heard this with genuine sorrow. She had enjoyed Mrs. Vance's companionship so much. There was no one else in the house whom she knew. Again she would be all alone.
Hurstwood's gloom over the slight decrease in profits and the departure of the Vances came together. So Carrie had loneliness and this mood of her husband to enjoy at the same time. It was a grievous thing. She became restless and dissatisfied, not exactly, as she thought, with Hurstwood, but with life. What was it? A very dull round indeed. What did she have? Nothing but this narrow, little flat. The Vances could travel, they could do the things worth doing, and here she was. For what was she made, anyhow? More thought followed, and then tears – tears seemed justified, and the only relief in the world.
For another period this state continued, the twain leading a rather monotonous life, and then there was a slight change for the worse. One evening, Hurstwood, after thinking about a way to modify Carrie's desire for clothes and the general strain upon his ability to provide, said:
«I don't think I'll ever be able to do much with Shaughnessy.»
«What's the matter?» said Carrie.
«Oh, he's a slow, greedy 'mick'! He won't agree to anything to improve the place, and it won't ever pay without it.»
«Can't you make him?» said Carrie.
«No; I've tried. The only thing I can see, if I want to improve, is to get hold of a place of my own.»
«Why don't you?» said Carrie.
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«Well, all I have is tied up in there just now. If I had a chance to save a while I think I could open a place that would give us plenty of money.»
«Can't we save?» said Carrie.
«We might try it,» he suggested. «I've been thinking that if we'd take a smaller flat down town and live economically for a year, I would have enough, with what I have invested, to open a good place. Then we could arrange to live as you want to.»
«It would suit me all right,» said Carrie, who, nevertheless, felt badly to think it had come to this. Talk of a smaller flat sounded like poverty.
«There are lots of nice little flats down around Sixth Avenue, below Fourteenth Street. We might get one down there.»
«I'll look at them if you say so,» said Carrie.
«I think I could break away from this fellow inside of a year,» said Hurstwood. «Nothing will ever come of this arrangement as it's going on now.»
«I'll look around,» said Carrie, observing that the proposed change seemed to be a serious thing with him.
The upshot of this was that the change was eventually effected; not without great gloom on the part of Carrie. It really affected her more seriously than anything that had yet happened. She began to look upon Hurstwood wholly as a man, and not as a lover or husband. She felt thoroughly bound to him as a wife, and that her lot was cast with his, whatever it might be; but she began to see that he was gloomy and taciturn, not a young, strong, and buoyant man. He looked a little bit old to her about the eyes and mouth now, and there were other things which placed him in his true rank, so far as her estimation was concerned. She began to feel that she had made
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a mistake. Incidentally, she also began to recall the fact that he had practically forced her to flee with him.
The new flat was located in Thirteenth Street, a half block west of Sixth Avenue, and contained only four rooms. The new neighbourhood did not appeal to Carrie as much. There were no trees here, no west view of the river. The street was solidly built up. There were twelve families here, respectable enough, but nothing like the Vances. Richer people required more space.
Being left alone in this little place, Carrie did without a girl. She made it charming enough, but could not make it delight her. Hurstwood was not inwardly pleased to think that they should have to modify their state, but he argued that he could do nothing. He must put the best face on it, and let it go at that.
He tried to show Carrie that there was no cause for financial alarm, but only congratulation over the chance he would have at the end of the year by taking her rather more frequently to the theatre and by providing a liberal table. This was for the time only. He was getting in the frame of mind where he wanted principally to be alone and to be allowed to think. The disease of brooding was beginning to claim him as a victim. Only the newspapers and his own thoughts were worth while. The delight of love had again slipped away. It was a case of live, now, making the best you can out of a very commonplace station in life.
The road downward has but few landings and level places. The very state of his mind, superinduced by his condition, caused the breach to widen between him and his partner. At last that individual began to wish that Hurstwood was out of
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it. It so happened, however, that a real estate deal on the part of the owner of the land arranged things even more effectually than illwill could have schemed.
«Did you see that?» said Shaughnessy one morning to Hurstwood, pointing to the real estate column in a copy of the «Herald,» which he held.
«No, what is it?» said Hurstwood, looking down the items of news.
«The man who owns this ground has sold it.» «You don't say so?» said Hurstwood.
He looked, and there was the notice. Mr. August Viele had yesterday registered the transfer of the lot, 25 x 75 feet, at the corner of Warren and Hudson Streets, to J. F. Slawson for the sum of $57,000.
«Our lease expires when?» asked Hurstwood, thinking. «Next February, isn't it?»
«That's right,» said Shaughnessy.
«It doesn't say what the new man's going to do with it,» remarked Hurstwood, looking back to the paper.
«We'll hear, I guess, soon enough,» said Shaughnessy. Sure enough, it did develop. Mr. Slawson owned the prop-
erty adjoining, and was going to put up a modern office building. The present one was to be torn down. It would take probably a year and a half to complete the other one.
All these things developed by degrees, and Hurstwood began to ponder over what would become of the saloon. One day he spoke about it to his partner.
«Do you think it would be worth while to open up somewhere else in the neighbourhood?»
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«What would be the use?» said Shaughnessy. «We couldn't get another corner around here.»
«It wouldn't pay anywhere else, do you think?»
«I wouldn't try it,» said the other. The approaching change now took on a most serious aspect to Hurstwood. Dissolution meant the loss of his thousand dollars, and he could not save another thousand in the time. He understood that Shaughnessy was merely tired of the arrangement, and would probably lease the new corner, when completed, alone. He began to worry about the necessity of a new connection and to see impending serious financial straits unless something turned up. This left him in no mood to enjoy his flat or Carrie, and consequently the depression invaded that quarter.
Meanwhile, he took such time as he could to look about, but opportunities were not numerous. More, he had not the same impressive personality which he had when he first came to New York. Bad thoughts had put a shade into his eyes which did not impress others favourably. Neither had he thirteen hundred dollars in hand to talk with. About a month later, finding that he had not made any progress, Shaughnessy reported definitely that Slawson would not extend the lease.
«I guess this thing's got to come to an end,» he said, affecting an air of concern.
«Well, if it has, it has,» answered Hurstwood, grimly. He would not give the other a key to his opinions, whatever they were. He should not have the satisfaction.
A day or two later he saw that he must say something to Carrie.
«You know,» he said, «I think I'm going to get the worst of my deal down there.»
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«How is that?» asked Carrie in astonishment.
«Well, the man who owns the ground has sold it. and the new owner won't release it to us. The business may come to an end.»
«Can't you start somewhere else?»
«There doesn't seem to be any place. Shaughnessy doesn't want to.»
«Do you lose what you put in?»
«Yes,» said Hurstwood, whose face was a study. «Oh, isn't that too bad?» said Carrie.
«It's a trick,» said Hurstwood. «That's all. They'll start another place there all right.»
Carrie looked at him, and gathered from his whole demeanour what it meant. It was serious, very serious.
«Do you think you can get something else?» she ventured, timidly.
Hurstwood thought a while. It was all up with the bluff about money and investment. She could see now that he was «broke.»
«I don't know,» he said solemnly; «I can try.»
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CHAPTER XXXIV
The grind of the millstones – a sample of chaff
Carrie pondered over this situation as consistently as Hurstwood, once she got the facts adjusted in her mind. It took several days for her to fully realise that the approach of the dissolution of her husband's business meant commonplace struggle and privation. Her mind went back to her early venture in Chicago, the Hansons and their flat, and her heart revolted. That was terrible! Everything about poverty was terrible. She wished she knew a way out. Her recent experiences with the Vances had wholly unfitted her to view her own state with complacence. The glamour of the high life of the city had, in the few experiences afforded her by the former, seized her completely. She had been taught how to dress and where to go without having ample means to do either. Now, these things – ever-present realities as they were – filled her eyes and mind. The more circumscribed became her state, the more entrancing seemed this other. And now poverty threatened to seize her entirely and to remove this other world far upward like a heaven to which any Lazarus might extend, appealingly, his hands.
So, too, the ideal brought into her life by Ames remained. He had gone, but here was his word that riches were not ev-
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erything; that there was a great deal more in the world than she knew; that the stage was good, and the literature she read poor. He was a strong man and clean – how much stronger and better than Hurstwood and Drouet she only half formulated to herself, but the difference was painful. It was something to which she voluntarily closed her eyes.
During the last three months of the Warren Street connection, Hurstwood took parts of days off and hunted, tracking the business advertisements. It was a more or less depressing business, wholly because of the thought that he must soon get something or he would begin to live on the few hundred dollars he was saving, and then he would have nothing to invest
– he would have to hire out as a clerk.
Everything he discovered in his line advertised as an opportunity, was either too expensive or too wretched for him. Besides, winter was coming, the papers were announcing hardships, and there was a general feeling of hard times in the air, or, at least, he thought so. In his worry, other people's worries became apparent. No item about a firm failing, a family starving, or a man dying upon the streets, supposedly of starvation, but arrested his eye as he scanned the morning papers. Once the «World» came out with a flaring announcement about «80,000 people out of employment in New York this winter,» which struck as a knife at his heart.
«Eighty thousand!» he thought. «What an awful thing that
is.»
This was new reasoning for Hurstwood. In the old days the world had seemed to be getting along well enough. He had been wont to see similar things in the «Daily News,» in Chicago, but they did not hold his attention. Now, these things
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