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eyes, and then she said, while her lips quivered, and he felt her whole frame trembling –

“Dear Jem! I often could have told you more of love, if I had not once spoken out so free. Remember that time, Jem, if ever you think me cold. Then, the love that’s in my heart would out in words; but now, though I’m silent on the pain I’m feeling in quitting you, the love is in my heart all the same. But this is not the time to speak on such things. If I do not do what I feel to be right now, I may blame myself all my life long! Jem, you promised” –

And so saying she left him. She went quicker than she would otherwise have passed over those few yards of ground, for fear he should still try to accompany her. Her hand was on the latch, and in a breath the door was opened.

There sat her father, still and motionless – not even turning his head to see who had entered; but perhaps he recognised the footstep- -the trick of action.

He sat by the fire; the grate, I should say, for fire there was none. Some dull grey ashes, negligently left, long days ago, coldly choked up the bars. He had taken the accustomed seat from mere force of habit, which ruled his automaton body. For all energy, both physical and mental, seemed to have retreated inwards to some of the great citadels of life, there to do battle against the Destroyer, Conscience.

His hands were crossed, his fingers interlaced; usually a position implying some degree of resolution, or strength; but in him it was so faintly maintained, that it appeared more the result of chance; an attitude requiring some application of

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outward force to alter — and a blow with a straw seemed as though it would be sufficient.

And as for his face, it was sunk and worn – like a skull, with yet a suffering expression that skulls have not! Your heart would have ached to have seen the man, however hardly you might have judged his crime.

But crime and all was forgotten by his daughter, as she saw his abashed look, his smitten helplessness. All along she had felt it difficult (as I may have said before) to reconcile the two ideas, of her father and a blood-shedder. But now it was impossible. He was her father! her own dear father! and in his sufferings, whatever their cause, more dearly loved than ever before. His crime was a thing apart, never more to be considered by her.

And tenderly did she treat him, and fondly did she serve him in every way that heart could devise, or hand execute.

She had some money about her, the price of her strange services as a witness; and when the lingering dusk grew on she stole out to effect some purchases necessary for her father’s comfort.

For how body and soul had been kept together, even as much as they were, during the days he had dwelt alone, no one can say. The house was bare as when Mary had left it, of coal, or of candle, of food, or of blessing in any shape.

She came quickly home; but as she passed Job Legh’s door, she stopped. Doubtless Jem had long since gone; and doubtless, too, he had given Margaret some good reason for not intruding upon her friend for this night at least, otherwise Mary would have seen her before now.

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But tomorrow, – would she not come in tomorrow? And who so quick as blind Margaret in noticing tones, and sighs, and even silence?

She did not give herself time for further thought, her desire to be once more with her father was too pressing; but she opened the door, before she well knew what to say.

“It’s Mary Barton! I know her by her breathing! Grandfather, it’s Mary Barton!”

Margaret’s joy at meeting her, the open demonstration of her love, affected Mary much; she could not keep from crying, and sat down weak and agitated on the first chair she could find.

“Ay, ay, Mary! thou’rt looking a bit different to when I saw thee last. Thou’lt give Jem and me good characters for sick nurses, I trust. If all trades fail, I’ll turn to that. Jem’s place is for life, I reckon. Nay, never redden so, lass. You and he know each other’s minds by this time!”

Margaret held her hand, and gently smiled into her face. Job Legh took the candle up, and began a leisurely inspec-

tion.

“Thou hast gotten a bit of pink in thy cheeks, – not much; but when last I see thee, thy lips were as white as a sheet. Thy nose is sharpish at th’ end; thou’rt more like thy father than ever thou wert before. Lord! child, what’s the matter? Art thou going to faint?”

For Mary had sickened at the mention of that name; yet she felt that now or never was the time to speak.

“Father’s come home!” she said, “but he’s very poorly; I never saw him as he is now before. I asked Jem not to come near him for fear it might fidget him.”

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She spoke hastily, and (to her own idea) in an unnatural manner. But they did not seem to notice it, nor to take the hint she had thrown out of company being unacceptable; for Job Legh directly put down some insect, which he was impaling on a corking-pin, and exclaimed –

“Thy father come home! Why, Jem never said a word of it! And ailing too! I’ll go in, and cheer him with a bit of talk. I never knew any good come of delegating it.”

“O Job! father cannot stand – father is too ill. Don’t come; not but that you’re very kind and good; but tonight – indeed,” said she at last, in despair, seeing Job still persevere in putting away his things; “you must not come till I send or come for you. Father’s in that strange way, I can’t answer for it if he sees strangers. Please don’t come. I’ll come and tell you every day how he goes on. I must be off now to see after him. Dear Job! kind Job! don’t be angry with me. If you knew all, you’d pity me.”

For Job was muttering away in high dudgeon, and even Margaret’s tone was altered as she wished Mary good-night. Just then she could ill brook coldness from any one, and least of all bear the idea of being considered ungrateful by so kind and zealous a friend as Job had been; so she turned round suddenly, even when her hand was on the latch of the door, and ran back, and threw her arms about his neck, and kissed him first, and then Margaret. And then, the tears fast falling down her cheeks, but no word spoken, she hastily left the house, and went back to her home.

There was no change in her father’s position, or in his spectral look. He had answered her questions (but few in number,

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for so many subjects were unapproachable) by monosyllables, and in a weak, high, childish voice; but he had not lifted his eyes; he could not meet his daughter’s look. And she, when she spoke, or as she moved about, avoided letting her eyes rest upon him. She wished to be her usual self; but while everything was done with a consciousness of purpose, she felt it was impossible.

In this manner things went on for some days. At night he feebly clambered upstairs to bed; and during those long dark hours Mary heard those groans of agony which never escaped his lips by day, when they were compressed in silence over his inward woe.

Many a time she sat up listening, and wondering if it would ease his miserable heart if she went to him, and told him she knew all, and loved and pitied him more than words could tell.

By day the monotonous hours wore on in the same heavy, hushed manner as on that first dreary afternoon. He ate, – but without that relish; and food seemed no longer to nourish him, for each morning his face had caught more of the ghastly foreshadowing of Death.

The neighbours kept strangely aloof. Of late years John Barton had had a repellent power about him, felt by all, except to the few who had either known him in his better and happier days, or those to whom he had given his sympathy and his confidence. People did not care to enter the doors of one whose very depth of thoughtfulness rendered him moody and stern. And now they contented themselves with a kind inquiry when they saw Mary in her goings-out or in her comings-in.

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With her oppressing knowledge, she imagined their reserved conduct stranger than it was in reality. She missed Job and Margaret too; who, in all former times of sorrow or anxiety since their acquaintance first began, had been ready with their sympathy.

But most of all she missed the delicious luxury she had lately enjoyed in having Jem’s tender love at hand every hour of the day, to ward off every wind of heaven, and every disturbing thought.

She knew he was often hovering about the house; though the knowledge seemed to come more by intuition, than by any positive sight or sound for the first day or two. On the third day she met him at Job Legh’s.

They received her with every effort of cordiality; but still there was a cobweb-veil of separation between them, to which Mary was morbidly acute; while in Jem’s voice, and eyes, and manner, there was every evidence of most passionate, most admiring, and most trusting love. The trust was shown by his respectful silence on that one point of reserve on which she had interdicted conversation.

He left Job Legh’s house when she did. They lingered on the step, he holding her hand between both of his, as loth to let her go; he questioned her as to when he should see her again.

“Mother does so want to see you,” whispered he. “Can you come to see her tomorrow; or when?”

“I cannot tell,” replied she softly. “Not yet. Wait awhile; perhaps only a little while. Dear Jem, I must go to him, – dearest Jem.”

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The next day, the fourth from Mary’s return home, as she was sitting near the window, sadly dreaming over some work, she caught a glimpse of the last person she wished to see – of Sally Leadbitter!

She was evidently coming to their house; another moment, and she tapped at the door. John Barton gave an anxious, uneasy side-glance. Mary knew that if she delayed answering the knock, Sally would not scruple to enter; so as hastily as if the visit had been desired, she opened the door, and stood there with the latch in her hand, barring up all entrance, and as much as possible obstructing all curious glances into the interior.

“Well, Mary Barton! You’re home at last! I heard you’d getten home; so I thought I’d just step over and hear the news.”

She was bent on coming in, and saw Mary’s preventive design. So she stood on tiptoe, looking over Mary’s shoulders into the room where she suspected a lover to be lurking; but instead, she saw only the figure of the stern, gloomy father she had always been in the habit of avoiding; and she dropped down again, content to carry on the conversation where Mary chose, and as Mary chose, in whispers.

“So the old governor is back again, eh? And what does he say to all your fine doings at Liverpool, and before? – you and I know where. You can’t hide it now, Mary, for it’s all in print.” Mary gave a low moan – and then implored Sally to change the subject; for unpleasant as it always was, it was doubly unpleasant in the manner in which she was treating it. If they had been alone Mary would have borne it patiently – or she thought, but now she felt almost certain, her father was listen-

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ing; there was a subdued breathing, a slight bracing-up of the listless attitude. But there was no arresting Sally’s curiosity to hear all she could respecting the adventures Mary had experienced. She, in common with the rest of Miss Simmonds’ young ladies, was almost jealous of the fame that Mary had obtained; to herself, such miserable notoriety.

“Nay! there’s no use shunning talking it over. Why! it was in the Guardian – and the Courier – and some one told Jane Hodgson it was even copied into a London paper. You’ve set up heroine on your own account, Mary Barton. How did you like standing witness? Aren’t them lawyers impudent things? staring at one so. I’ll be bound you wished you’d taken my offer, and borrowed my black watered scarf! Now didn’t you, Mary? Speak truth!”

“To tell the truth, I never thought about it then, Sally. How could I?” asked she reproachfully.

“Oh – I forgot. You were all for that stupid James Wilson. Well! if I’ve ever the luck to go witness on a trial, see if I don’t pick up a better beau than the prisoner. I’ll aim at a lawyer’s clerk, but I’ll not take less than a turnkey.”

Cast down as Mary was, she could hardly keep from smiling at the idea, so wildly incongruous with the scene she had really undergone, of looking out for admirers during a trial for murder.

“I’d no thought to be looking out for beaux, I can assure you, Sally. But don’t let us talk any more about it; I can’t bear to think on it. How is Miss Simmonds? and everybody?”

“Oh, very well; and by the way, she gave me a bit of a message for you. You may come back to work if you’ll behave your-

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self, she says. I told you she’d be glad to have you back, after all this piece of business, by way of tempting people to come to her shop. They’d come from Salford to have a peep at you, for six months at least.”

“Don’t talk so; I cannot come, I can never face Miss Simmonds again. And even if I could” – she stopped, and blushed.

“Ay! I know what you are thinking on. But that will not be this some time, as he’s turned off from the foundry – you’d better think twice afore refusing Miss Simmonds’ offer.”

“Turned off from the foundry? Jem?” cried Mary.

“To be sure! didn’t you know it? Decent men were not going to work with a – no! I suppose I mustn’t say it, seeing you went to such trouble to get up an alibi; not that I should think much the worse of a spirited young fellow for falling foul of a rival – they always do at the theatre.”

But Mary’s thoughts were with Jem. How good he had been never to name his dismissal to her. How much he had had to endure for her sake!

“Tell me all about it,” she gasped out.

“Why, you see, they’ve always swords quite handy at them plays,” began Sally; but Mary, with an impatient shake of her head, interrupted –

“About Jem – about Jem, I want to know.”

“Oh! I don’t pretend to know more than is in every one’s mouth: he’s turned away from the foundry, because folk doesn’t think you’ve cleared him outright of the murder; though perhaps the jury were loth to hang him. Old Mr. Carson is savage against judge and jury, and lawyers and all, as I heard.”

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“I must go to him, I must go to him,” repeated Mary, in a hurried manner.

“He’ll tell you all I’ve said is true, and not a word of lie,” replied Sally. “So I’ll not give your answer to Miss Simmonds, but leave you to think twice about it. Good afternoon!”

Mary shut the door, and turned into the house.

Her father sat in the same attitude; the old unchanging attitude. Only his head was more bowed towards the ground.

She put on her bonnet to go to Ancoats; for see, and question, and comfort, and worship Jem, she must.

As she hung about her father for an instant before leaving him, he spoke – voluntarily spoke for the first time since her return; but his head was drooping so low she could not hear what he said, so she stooped down; and after a moment’s pause, he repeated the words –

“Tell Jem Wilson to come here at eight o’clock tonight.” Could he have overheard her conversation with Sally

Leadbitter? They had whispered low, she thought. Pondering on this, and many other things, she reached Ancoats.

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